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Saturday, 12 September 2009

  • Syurga Cinta (Heaven's Love)

    Love is a word that has no definite meaning to it.

    I believe that it varies from each individual as we perceive it differently.

    What i want out of love might not be what another wants.

    So what do it want most from love?

    Sincerity.

    Love that comes from God (Allah).

    It isnt about how long the relationship has been lasting or how long both have known each other. Love from God as part of our fate and destiny, is something that only both party will be able to feel deep in their heart and Insyallah, with God's will, that love will last forever.

    Weath can never buy happiness. All I am hoping is for someone to be there always to guide me well to the right path and to love me with a clean heart.

    I am not sure myself if I have found that right person but I am always waiting and will always pray to be able to meet this love someday. I dunno if he is really the type of person i want to spend my life with. I do have that feeling sometimes but then again, it isnt a feeling that I have total confidence in. As much as I have been in so much patience and accepted all kinds of challenges, I am still in doubt at times.

    One can never change another with he or she changes their own self.

    I guess I am holding back due to the past and I just dunno how to let it go and just start afresh. Maybe I could but it'll probably take a few years for me to gather all my strength again abroad, a place away from home. Thats what one of my gf is doin.

    I dont have the courage and strength to part and do all the above. Sometimes i just hope that it will somehow happen by itself. Hah.

    I am still traumatised emotionally and only God understands this cry deep in my heart that is still alive in me. It feels like my heart has been shut closed to any other guy.

    I just dont want to regret in making any critical decision. No point crying over a spilt milk.

Saturday, 27 June 2009

  • Currently
    Number Ones
    By Michael Jackson
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    Goodbye to our Extraordinary Idol.


    Born in 29th August 1958 - i didnt know that he is a Leo, in a town called Gary,Indiana, gained his limelight and status as a star when he was only 6 years old,when other kids like him at that age would not even understand the meaning of becoming a 'star'.

    His album Thriller features top legendary hits songs - even I am listening to it now while blogging, up till this very day like Billie Jean and Beat It. Another iconic song till today, a song often used for social movements is We Are The World after winning a White House award for his contribution to overcome the social problems of misusing drugs.

    Another of his icon is of course, the famous Moonwalk, which every dancer till this day would have want and tried imitating it. As for awards, he has won tremendous number of awards of various kinds from Grammy to World Guiness Record - Music video Thriller, Best in History.

    Despite all the above success stories, most 'stars' will definitely be exposed or framed to rumours/gossips or even their own actions that will lead and give them a negative image, which will then provide hot sizzling topics for magazine headlines, entertainment news and of course, word of mouth, to criticize and make fun of.

    He underwent an extraordinary skin in particular face transformation with what many people said - an excessive use of plastic surgeries. Ever since, people started to mock,make fun of and even Eminem used him as part of his music video in Without Me.

    It doesnt end there.

    Despite his love for kids - now i wonder what will happen to his Neverland now that he's gone, this idol was sued for raping a teenage child in 1993. His last few years, he was hit by a financial crisis and another rape issue.

    When u had fell hard to the ground, you will definitely want to make a comeback someday in London and there are even plans of making a world concert shows - the King is coming to get back his Throne. However this comeback has only become a dream instead after MJ's sudden death due to a heart attack.

    The shocking news make the whole world shed to tears with celebrities, millions of his fans and even world leaders such as those from Venezuela, South Korea, France and German paid their tribute.

    May MJ rest in peace and may God bless him. There will never be another MJ, never... and his songs will always stay alive.. Always...



Friday, 29 May 2009

  • Another beginning

    The wait is finally over.

    3 months long. I kept hunting high and low.

    I was at the brink of giving up but I just cant. I stood up and roamed again with patience and perserverance as my backbone and with my goals in life as my motivations to keep going and stay strong.

    And now, I can officially let out a sigh of relief. *pheww*

    My stepping stone in the working world will begin soon and this, is just another beginning - a brand new chapter.

    Welcome to the new parade and all the best to me!

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Monday, 20 April 2009

  • Bestfriend Boy,I am with.

    I took the quiz "What kind of boy I should be with?" and that was the answer, bestfriend boy.

    Nice.

    Then I thought why not I use it to reflect on my own relationship and whatever thoughts that comes along the way in the hope it by writing something fun it could ease the anger in me and end today happily.

    I used to have a lot of bestfriend boy before and I've dated most of them but oh well, things just didnt turn out they way I wanted it I guess or probably I just love them as a bestfriend.Period. As I began to grow up and meet more people, I then realised what kind of person I would be comfortable to be with. Before, most of the guys I dated likes to be "mushy gushy" and I have to say that 3 magic word phrase before putting down the phone. Thats one example. Of course, initially it gave you a nice feeling and it makes me smile but as time passes, it gets pretty mundane and boring for me.

    I have nothing to look forward to once I can anticipate the things that's gonna happen. I dont need to be showered with gifts,hugs and kisses always. Easy. If he misses me, I am just a call away and vice versa. Calling signifies that we remember one another. We talk on the phone everyday. However, we seldom meet.(ps: i always get long dist bf,including the current) And thats a good thing. Frankly in my opinion,only a clingy partner would meet their lover every single day. Well, if u want to do so then i'd rather u work hard, quickly save some cash,get married and stay under one roof .By then,every singly morning u wake up,u will see each other.right?

    Why be overly possesive. I believe that a r/s will only be strong and go far if both parties have MUTUAL trust and understanding. The dating/engaged season is still a time for you to have some fun and make your own decisions. So treasure that time while you still have it before much heavier responsibilies are being lifted on to your shoulders. Initially,yes I must admit that he was quite controlling but you must know when to "pull and let go the kite strings". Now, i can do what i want and so can he.

    So tell me, what do you do each time u meet your partner? Do u look forward to it? If you say you simply just look into each other's eyes, that would not be for long. Or do you just go out somewhere to eat dinner, hangout, makeout then home?Seriously,you're just about to start the game. I look for fun and something exciting. Something new. I got a whole list of them but some things that we've done together were: karaoke,zoo trip, celebrated xmas at night safari, fishing,gardening with orchids, helping his artwork and riding on his bike anywhere till JB!haha.

    I try to make it stay afresh always. Its not like u have a reset button to press.

    Think i can keep on bragging on this and write a book someday. Interesting!

    Night sweets! Stay fresh always!

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    still & always,since 10072006

Sunday, 19 April 2009

  • What do u always do online?

    At an instant, I bet most of you would say Facebook, MSN, Youtube,blog and the list goes on and on and on.

    As much as the Internet is playing a vital role in this modern and high tech world especially in our daily life, we should always utilise it well and not misused it. Apart for work, majority of us would surf the net as a form of leisure entertainment only. Take for example Facebook alone. What do you often do in it? Play games, take various quizzes so that we can understand or know ourselves better..hmm really? yes and no.

    Facebook seems to be a combination of several website elements into 1 - it allows you to find friends, add photos and videos,blog, play games, create own animals and even babies or other creations and interestingly, interact with people using various mode such as poking or sending them all kinds of things be it a growing gift, hatching egg and even ghosts.Hah!

    Above all these mentioned, I believe that its ultimate or bottomline purpose is simply to firstly,SHARE - your interests,events/occasions/happenings through photos and videos, thoughts through blogging and most importantly, comments, useful comments from various,unique own perspectives. Thus, this then leads to second, NETWORKING.

    Another popular site is definitely YouTube, or also known as the online jukebox. Again, do you just look for music videos or songs in there? If you need any inspiration, ideas or "how-to" questions, it is all in there! From how to put on a face eyelash to how to fix a guitar string or inspirations for party makeup/facepaint, ideas to srapbook. Just mention it. You too can share your own videos, or thoughts by commenting on others.

    And sharing comes in all sorts of things. Furthermore, most sites has incorporated sharing tools and one of them is facebook. Sites from the news,videos from youtube and many others.

    However, I realised that we Asians tend to be less outspoken and rather keep quiet and refrain from commenting anything in fear of saying the wrong thing and the Westerns noticed that prominently. I thought that's quite a shame. Why afraid what others might think of what you have just said or asked? Its either we are shy or we have low or no self confidence to do what we want unless we are in our comfort zone(eg.commenting just on ur close friends) and

    thats the reason what the Internet is for, especially for the timid ones out there. We just see your face or name and whatever you say/comment often starts and end just there. It is all virtual.

    It might be the real you or less like the real you. A quiet person in reality might be someone more outspoken in the virtual or cyber world.

    So make use of all the people in your friends list be it in facebook or friendster,etc and talk to them. Otherwise, whats the use of adding but ignoring them? I wonder to myself too.LOL.

Friday, 17 April 2009

  • Its getting on my nerves!

    There is little that others can do. Probably just give me some encouraging words(i need a lot of it!) or if they are kind enough, recommend to me some.

    On the other hand, all I can do is just to stay at home and rot (hell no!). I just got to keep on trying and trying to find and apply as many as I can and wait of course for the outcome. I have a feeling my application has mount to more than 50 but Pathetically and sympathetically, I have only went for 1 frigging interview(which will take another 1 frigging month to process!) and 1 lame job test(and i didnt get shortlisted for the next round).

    I just dont get it, out of so many only 2 responded! Is the economy really that bad and so many people are unemployed or is it just me that is not good?? wth. If only I have money I would just stick to schooling and further my studies but I just cant. It hard times now so i gotta work to help my family(ps:i am not a rich kid). Worse, my dad thinks that I am just lazying at home and not putting in efforts to search for jobs. Hello, then whats the many many application I send out for ehh??! Then he will start grumble and mumble(ngomel) to himself and thats so irritating!!

    I looked up in the newspaper but very few is suitable for me so I just often go online. I wonder how long or how many will it take for me to finally nail a job man. Also, guess one thing for sure in times like this esp here in sg is that, "bangsa dia" will definitely be prioritized first. "Lau tak mkn kebulor!" Damnit!

    And now, I am dreading to go search for jobs again(but i must!). God help me pls..pls plssssssss

Thursday, 16 April 2009

  • i wish..i wishh

    In chronological order, here goes the list:

    - get a decent job (by May) i need one urgently!

    - a bicolor seal/choc/lynx point raggy pet (mid May) i have been longing to have a pet

    - a decent net/notebook (first pay) definitely need a new one

    - enrol for car license

    - either sony eric xhperia or htc touch pro. badly need a new one!

    - crocs with many many cute jibbitz. my feet can feet the size 5, the kid's biggest size and theirs have nicer colours!

    - iPod classic/video. a want/craving but i like to have seperate devices for each uses and not store everything in the hp.

    - roadster.maybe red or pink with a rattan basket in front. classic..i lioke!

    - take up sewing courses. blaja buat baju kurung/kebaye so can amek tempah for some extra cash since i've always wanted to dressmake.

    - holiday trip to phuket (hopefully july or aug with apd gang) and things i wanna do there: 50m bungee jump, elephant jungle trekking, visit and donate for the gibbons, horse riding by the beach and maybe snorkeling too! despite in baht they could still be quite costly!

     

    These can be considered milestones for me too and it should be enough to keep me motivated and going to get a job real soooonnn and save!!

  • For my Ladeeys

    What's life without your girlfriend(s)-gfs ?

    Do you only rely on your bf as both a lover and a  'friend' or some even say 'best' friend? Well maybe you can but not for everything. Or for some others, a childhood guy friend even as your 'bestfriend'. A thin separation line between your partner and guy buddy is the level of affection you pour to them, but to those who are confused between a friend and a lover(some ppl are), then thats another different story all together. You just got to balance your time for both the lover and friends.

    The distinct line here is about male and female,guy and girl - two different gender with totally 2 different way of thinking or perspectives especially when it comes to relationship matters. They are totally 2 conflicting and seperate creatures - take beauty and the beast for example.Haha.

    I believe that almost every girl out there, regardless whether u have many or little friends, will definitely have a close gfs in their social circle. Even a tomboy has theirs. So if you are a miss normality then u definitely will too.

    Wont you feel something is amiss if u only have guys and just guys to talk to? I strongly believes that even after marriage, you would still want the presence of your gfs once in while such as a night out together over dinner to chill out and catch things up. And girl, you better be fair to your partner if he still wants to spend time out with his guys for soccer or a night out to dinner too. Compromise and trust each other babey. It should be fine if u only do it once in a while unless both of u are irresistable and irritating control freaks of each other,and thats ugly.

    Moreover, who says that you are done with r/s probs once you're married? Hell no, it might get worse even esp when u start to wrinkle and become less beautiful. Although that might not always be the reason, we girls got to always upkeep our appearance as part of the effort to keep the r/s afresh(in the hope your partner doesnt get bored looking at the same u every single day!). Problems will always pop out, it depends on how you deal with it but i guess singles doesnt really have to worry much about r/s probs uh.

    We can never talk to a guy about r/s hiccups. Like I said earlier, we and the guys look into things differently. We say right,they say left or we say black they say white. Sometimes when u feel like having a short break from ur r/s, i am sure u will need a girl's companion. and esp when u are someone's wife, isnt it kinda weird to still have your guyfriend to go out with,just the 2 of you?? Your mum could be one of them unless there is a generation gap.

    Even desperate housewives have their gang of ladies.

    If you dont have at least one girlfriend yet, get off ur butt and start making friend with one! and to those who already have yours since childhood or managed to get hold of them again(which facebook does help a lot), always rmbr to keep in touch and treasure the friendship. Its just a call or a text msg away!

    All the best ladies!

    <3

Tuesday, 31 March 2009

  • Currently
    Circus
    By Britney Spears
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    My celebrity Idol, BS

    Apart from our own mother, parents for grandparents, there are of course public figures who we adore and look up to them

    but I am not talking about some priests or religious figures like Mohatma Gandhi or Mother Theresa,etc. They already have reserved a place in Heaven. Or even political leaders like Confucius or worse, Hitler. (pls Hitler is not someone to be idolised)

    Besides all those people mentioned above, celebrities especially singers could be the next choice of idol in line. That's why they have American Idol.Lol. Music is an integral part of our life with every one carrying an Ipod or mp3 each now,true? However, we cant just make someone an idol for their talent only such as their voices. Its the things that they do or personalities that we adore and thus, taking them as a role model, in whatever aspect of life that you see in that particular idol of yours.

    Some of the longest and still sustaining celebrity you see on tv could be Mariah Carey, Madonna and of course, Britney Spears, but among these 3, which one of them is the better one?

    She started her journey as a star when she was still young, went through heartbreaks and allthosestuffs and became the golden eye of the paparazzies. She was suffocated and almost drowned, but she survived. She managed to pull herself out and go back to shine.

    She has the courage and strength that I adore. She has made her comeback, and so did I too before.(except that i doesnt have paparazzies to bother me but only big mouths that talk)

    So if u let yourself become weak, the rest of the world(people out there) will applaud. Stay strong and do not let yourself fade and drown.

Tuesday, 17 March 2009

  • Not a Typical Love Story

    Typical love stories could perhaps sounds like these...

    They were childhood friends and both had fallen in love with each other since young, till one day when both are in their teenage years, either the guy or the girl changed into a different person than whom they used to know or had met and fell in love with another party which subsequently led to break ups or losing contacts of each other..

    or the r/s could blossom into a typical happy ending love story where they get married, have kids and live happily ever after. (gosh i would love to a happy story too but life is not easy as we always think,right?)

    or the couple had a long term r/s say 5-10 years before they broke up or get married.

    Simply said, a relationship could either

    start by planned-meetups through your social network, blind dates, friends or unexpected like those u see on tv eg. u accidently spill a coffee on a guy's shirt and he got attracted to u..yadayada..u know, love at first sight. duh!

    u survived the obstacles or u didnt

    have a happy or sad ending

    Easy,3 generic stages from a bird's eye view.

    However, some things could set your story different from the others and make ur love story into a Bizarre one. (i would like that!) It's the process of maintaining the r/s,  the obstacles that u had faced and u survived through it or the techniques that u use to keep the r/s stay alive and afresh or even your partner him/herself that is bizarre to u! Well, who knows that all this while there is a dark secret that lies beneath everything. hohoho.

    Some of my girlfriends are going through this 'Bizarre' love story. It could be their partner themself, or things that their partner did to them.

    A 'Bizarre' love story could also either be a happy or the other way round but when the latter happens, true friends would be supportive and be by their side to help mend things up.

    Most importantly, one needs to have a positive and strong attitude to overcome all odds, clear the mess and get back on track.

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